Defeated, Never!

For the past two days, the “devil” has been trying to make me feel defeated.  I have been worrying a bit too much about my new job (which I have not started yet), worried that I won’t be good enough, that I am not smart enough or capable.  I noticed that my self talk has been negative.

But in all this, I have a choice! And this morning as I woke up I said to God, I am not defeated, I have no reason to worry, I will cast all my cares on you, because you care for me.  I believe I got this job through divine intervention, and I will do my utmost to be my best at it.

I got a second chance at quiet a few things, God is showing me my areas of weakness, small things about me that are not in tune with his will.  And I will have to fix it immediately. But these kinks in my life are not showing failure, but ways to improve and become better at life.

I am not defeated, I will no longer be worried, I will only do my utmost to bring glory to God.

Fervor and Not Fear

With fervor, that angel came after me, he chased me with such urgency!

I was afraid, sorely afraid, because I could not tell what it was!

Batman? A man-bat? I could not discern, and I ran as fast as I could.

My long, lanky legs took me over fences, walls, under bridges

Behind the middle house in the cul de sac at the end of Cameron Drive.

I didn’t see that wretched root, as I scaled the 4 foot white picket fence.

I fell, face planted more like it! I didn’t hear the “snap”, I didn’t feel it!

The adrenaline coursing my veins, my fright and flight response!

The screamed in unison, “Get up you ass, run! run!” and I tried.

But I fell again.  Disabled, nowhere to run, I postured to defend!

But he saw that I was hurt, damaged, and he looked at me.

His eyes stripped me to the core of my soul, but not with judgment.

But with knowing and understanding. My eyes met his, without fear.

I too understood and I surrendered, I needed him, to fix me, heal me.

In that speechless moment, I had no choice but to trust him.

He tended to my wounds, defiant in silence, that lack of spoken word.

But that would soon end, for once he healed me, he spoke.

His voice resonated with in my heart, it rumbled like thunder,

Yet, it was clear and crisp, cool as resplendent water flowing wistfully in a meadow brook.

He spoke of my life, and the directions I must choose.

My power is absolutely the power of choice!

Fear is my disability, if I choose to let it rule my choices, and I don’t.

He asked, what would you do if you were not afraid?

I would never fail! I would be excellent! I would conquer all obstacles.

ThinkerToys: Such a cool book!

Every time I go to Barns & Nobles I spend more money than I intend to! But, and its a HUGE BUT, I always feel it’s totally worth it.  I bought a cool book called THINKERTOYS by Michael Michalko, it has great ideas to inspire creativity and creative thinking (possibly one and the same).  It ties into the theme I have been posting on the past few weeks (give or take a day or two), which is making positive changes.  The first chapter of delves into addressing our fears, which is the killer of creativity. I got so excited about it, that I took to Facebook right away! Here is what I posted.

Doubts, Uncertainties, Fears:

So many times we let our doubts, uncertainties and fears affect our creativity, our drive for success.

To change this we need to transform our negative thoughts in to new and positive attitudes. The following are ways to do so:

1. Acknowledge your negative feelings then focus your energy on what you wish to substitute them for. Never take counsel from your fears. If you feel you are not good enough acknowledge it and then, affirm yourself that you are good enough!

2. Increase your Self Affirmation. Make a habit of remembering your successes, your good qualities and characteristics, while forgetting your failures. Remember, success breeds success! This practice will cause you to experience even more successes. Record the things you like about yourself, in all areas of your life, they will motivate you to get going!

3. Imagine yourself as successful (at whatever it is you choose to be) Picture yourself vividly achieving your goals, and that in itself will greatly contribute to your success. You must affirm that you believe it to be true.

Try this exercise:

Write a statement of affirmation, then write it 20 different ways using first, second and third persons. As you write, you may have negative thoughts come up, write them down on another sheet, and continue to write your positive affirmations. Once complete, look at the negative thoughts you wrote, they represent your obstacles, negate them by writing positive affirmations that specifically address those obstacles.

PS: I think you are fully capable of realizing any goal you set for yourself!